My name is John Schulte, of
Cheshire County, England. If I have notched my date stick correctly, today is
Monday, January 22, 1903, and tomorrow will be my twenty-third birthday. I say
“if,” because sometimes the intense cold makes the mind do funny things. I
decided to start this journal because I feel the end of my life may be near.
I left my dear home in England
and the security of my position teaching at St. Luke’s Preparatory School,
over two years ago. The lure of finding gold brought me here. I have not been
as lucky as many of the other blokes who came here. Most of them have made
their fortune and moved on or returned to their homes.
Six of us decided to stay the
winter and hope the melting snows of spring would bring more gold down the
Quesnel River. We buddied up, with two men to a cabin. We have plenty of
everything we need except food. When the others left, what they could not
carry out or haul on their pack animals, they gave to the six of us, all that
is except their food.
One of my major concerns is that
my cabin mate, Thomas Knoll, disappeared two days ago. He had been ranting for
a couple of days about the cold, but I really don’t feel he just lost his
head and wandered off. Before the rest of us even realized he was gone,
another of our town members, Jules Bennett, laid claim to some of his
clothing. It is difficult to talk to the others without Jules being around.
Yesterday, I went out in search
of wood and to look around some for any signs of Thomas. Before I could really
look for him, I fell through the ice on the river. My left foot was numb
before I got back to the cabin. Today, part of it is black. I’m afraid it is
frozen.
The intense cold is wearing on
all of us in one way or another.
Tuesday, January 23. If I were
home, I would be visiting my dear parent’s house tonight for tea and cakes.
I must go and see if I can talk to Zachary and David without Jules being
around.
The situation is getting worse.
I talked to David just now
and Zachary has apparently wandered off during the night. He may have gone out
in the night to relieve himself, but we saw no tracks in the snow anywhere. It
is almost like he flew away.
There was an area where Jules had
drug a large branch up for firewood, so he could have covered up tracks that
way.
The only good side of all of this
is we now have more food.
Wednesday, January, 24. The cold
must be getting to my mind. I no longer seem to think straight. I could have
sworn I heard David whistling outside this morning, but Kenneth Jones, his
cabin mate, tells me he is no longer in camp. He, too, disappeared sometime
during the night.
Kenneth and I decided to move in
together so we can keep a watch over each other during the night. We will take
turns sleeping. We did manage to bring all of his food to my cabin before
Jules could get to it. I’m having a most difficult time walking. The
blackness in my foot is spreading.
Thursday, January, 25. Jules came
pounding on our door early this morning demanding to know what became of the
food in Kenneth’s cabin. He yelled through the door that we had more than
enough for two. We yelled back that he had more than enough for one.
Unfortunately, the line has now
been drawn. It is Kenneth and I against Jules. Only God knows what will
happen.
Friday, January 26. Kenneth and I
have spent our entire day inside the cabin. Kenneth fashioned a bar to go
across our door so the latch can not be opened from the outside. We also took
a spare blanket, put it over our only window, and then nailed boards behind
it. It has made our cabin very dark, but we both feel it is necessary to keep
Jules out. We do have a good supply of kerosene and candles. One problem is
the wick in our kerosene lamp. It is getting very close to being burnt up. We
have no spares.
Kenneth has spent his time inside
well. He likes to whittle and is very talented in that art. He has fashioned a
new handle for his hunting knife out of a moose horn and has carved his
initials in it, as well as the head of a moose on the hilt of the handle.
Once today, I thought I heard a
bear prowling outside our cabin. Kenneth reminded me all the bears were still
in hibernation. He figured it was Jules trying to find some way into our
cabin. Earlier in the day, we both thought we heard someone trying to raise
the latch on our door. We yelled at Jules to go away, but he did not answer
us.
Saturday, January 27. We had to
go out this morning to empty the bucket we are now forced to use for our
toilet needs. I carried the bucket and Kenneth walked behind me carrying an
axe. Since I have been limping badly because of my frozen foot, we decided he
would have an easier time of it if Jules should try to attack us.
After emptying the bucket, we
went out to get some firewood as we were running very low. We have still seen
nothing of Jules. As we were cutting up some dead, fallen limbs, we saw him.
He was sitting on a stump about halfway up a slight hillside. He was maybe a
hundred meters away. He made no attempt to approach us or say anything to us.
We simply cut our wood and carried it back to the cabin, while, of course,
keeping an eye on him. We have no idea what he might try next.
Sunday, January 28. My foot is
giving me great pain. It is not completely black, but red streaks are
beginning to show up on my legs. My foot is rotting on my live body, and I am
probably getting blood poisoning. I found myself staring at Kenneth’s
hunting knife today, wondering if I could cut off my own foot. I am not sure I
would ask him to do such a thing.
Kenneth read out loud from his
Bible this morning. It is the closest thing we have to a church service.
Around noon, I’m sure I heard
Jules walking around the outside of our cabin. We must find a way to make him
stop. We are prisoners here now!
Monday, January 29. Jules came to
the door early this morning. He was asking that we let him in so we could all
talk. Of course, we refused. He got furious and started pounding on the door.
Then we think he got a large stick or log and tried to batter it down.
Kenneth sat in the corner of the
cabin for the rest of the day. He slept off and on, but made no attempt to
talk to me. He seems to be going inside himself. With my physical condition,
if something happens to Kenneth, I will not be able to defend myself against
Jules. Sometime, he will catch me outside. All he would really have to do is
make me stay outside. I would quickly freeze to death.
Tuesday, January 30. Around dawn,
I heard much noise outside. I knew Jules was tearing up something, but had no
idea what. I finally convinced Kenneth to help me empty the bucket again, but
didn’t have much confidence in his ability to help if anything happened.
Once we were outside, we saw
Jules had torn the doors off all the cabins around us, except his. He had also
broken out any windows that were left. I began to see his plan. If he could
get to our cabin before we could, we would have no way to stay warm. But what
about his cabin? Couldn’t we go there? I have many more questions than
answers.
We hurried back to our cabin. We
did not see him.
Wednesday, January 31. Last night
we heard wolves howling very close. They must be getting hungry. Their food is
probably running short, also.
Kenneth went out early this
morning, cut down a small live tree, and fashioned a crutch for me. Jules was
walking in a circle around us, but staying several meters away. He reminded me
of the wolves method of attacking. We kept watching each other, but he never
tried to approach us. He never spoke to us either, nor we to him.
We have spent the rest of the day
in our cabin. Occasionally, we heard Jules mumbling just outside our walls.
Kenneth seemed to retreat a little further today. He simply sits close to the
stove and does not even respond when I talk to him. Today, he has never even
made eye contact with me.
Maybe it is our lack of light
that effects him, also. We are now burning only one candle at a time, and our
cabin is very dark and dreary.
Thursday, February 1. I do not
know what is to become of me now. Kenneth went outside this morning, for what
reason, I do not know. I tried to ask him why, but he did not answer. I then
tried to follow him. Jules came running at him from the side of our cabin,
yelling like a banshee. I was hobbling far enough behind to be of no help.
Jules had a hatchet raised as he came at Kenneth. Kenneth drew his hunting
knife. At almost the same moment, Jules hit Kenneth in the neck with the
hatchet, and Kenneth plunged his hunting knife into Jules’ belly. They both
went down bleeding badly.
I tried to help Kenneth, but
could get no response from him. Jules groaned once, but then quit breathing. I
could not even bury their bodies. I pushed as much snow over them as I could
with my crutch. I’m sure by now their bodies are frozen solid.
As much as it pained me, I pulled
the knife out of Jules. I also took the hatchet. I need some kind of
protection, even though I may not be able to use it.
I have tried to review my
situation. I can find no bright spots, except I now have enough food to
probably last until spring, if I should live that long. I’m not sure if I
will be able to get wood. My leg becomes more useless each day. The poison in
my now infected leg will surely kill me. If I attempt to cut it off, I will
probably bleed to death. So I am stuck in this cabin with only the infernal
cold for company.
Friday, February 2. Last night, I
heard the wolves just outside the cabin. I’m sure they were feasting on the
bodies out there. There was much growling and yapping among them. I am afraid
to even venture out. I do not want to see what I know is there.
I have been in the cabin all day.
I dread tomorrow. I will have to go out to find more wood. Maybe, if I go to
the left of the cabin, I can avoid seeing the grizzly mess.
A while ago, it seemed to get
very quiet outside. The wind died and there was little sound. I peeked out
around the corner of the blanket over the window. The snow coming down very
gently, but heavy. My job of getting wood will now be more difficult.
Saturday, February 3. It is my
mother’s birthday today. Again, if I were home, I would be enjoying tea and
cakes with her tonight, instead of facing certain death as I am here.
When I went out for wood this
morning, my eyes were drawn to the spot where the two bodies should have been.
They appeared to be gone. I shuttered at the thought of the wolves dragging
them away. With the new snow, there was no sign of the tragedy that had
occurred there.
I now sit here contemplating what
to do about my leg. I just do not think I can attempt to sever it, yet not to
is certain death.
Whatever happens, may God have mercy on my soul!